Gisele Bündchen has been in the game for quite some time, but there’s still so much about her that we don’t know. The famous supermodel has always kept her private life private, but will now be sharing her experiences in her new memoir “Lessons: My Path to a Meaningful Life,” which launches today (10/2).
In it, Bündchen opens up about everything, starting with the fact that she got a boob job after breastfeeding her two children, Benjamin, 8 and Vivian, 5, left them uneven. She even revealed that she regrets getting it! “I felt very vulnerable because I can work out, I can eat healthy, but I can’t change the fact that both of my kids enjoyed the left boob more than the right. All I wanted was for them to be even and for people to stop commenting on it,” she says.
But perhaps the most shocking revelation in the book is Bündchen’s past struggles with mental health. This is the first time she’s ever spoken about her battles with panic attacks and anxiety, and we were so shocked to read what she underwent!
The model revealed that she began experiencing panic attacks when her career first took off 15 years ago. She remembers her first panic attack, which was triggered by being on a bumpy plane ride, and explained how it lead her to develop a fear of tunnels, elevators, and other enclosed spaces.
As her panic attacks worsened, Bündchen said that the constant distress and anxieties led her to contemplated suicide. “I actually had the feeling of, 'If I just jump off my balcony, this is going to end, and I never have to worry about this feeling of my world closing in,’” she told People.
Bündchen then sought professional help and was prescribed Xanax to help ease her anxieties, but the model revealed that switching her diet, fitness, and lifestyle routines proved to be the most beneficial in relieving her stress.
“I had been smoking cigarettes, drinking a bottle of wine and three mocha Frappucinos every day, and I gave up everything in one day," she continued. "I thought, ‘if this stuff is in any way the cause of this pain in my life, it's gotta go.’"
Thankfully, Bündchen was able to turn her life around and do some soul-searching to understand the root of her panic attacks and how her lifestyle was triggering them. She hopes to use her new memoir and other struggles to connect with people who are also battling similar issues and be a source of empowerment and guidance.
“Things can be looking perfect on the outside, but you have no idea what's really going on," she says. "I felt like maybe it was time to share some of my vulnerabilities, and it made me realize, everything I've lived through, I would never change because I think I am who I am because of those experiences."
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